Tuesday, September 3, 2013

I promise you, you're not.

i promise you


When you're lying in bed struggling to fall asleep because you fear that you are totally alone.....you're not.

When you're at home and hear people laughing in the street and assume that you must be the only one sitting in their living room watching Netflix.....you're not.

When you're walking through a store thinking that you must be an idiot because the woman next to you must be silently judging you for looking at all the clearance sections.....you're not.

When you're feeling like the only one in the world putting themselves to bed at 8:30pm because it's been a really hard week.....you're not.

When you're feeling intense anxiety in your body and wondering how everyone else can go about their business just fine and you assume you must be the only one.....you're not.

When you're rethinking all those text messages and deciding that you were ridiculous for even thinking of sending them.....you're not.



When you're doing anything that is totally, unequivocally, completely you
and begin to feel any shreds of doubt or judgment or negativity
and start to feel like you are the craziest, most absurd person on earth.....

.....you're not.


I promise you, you're not.

xoxo


5 comments:

  1. Taking in your words and wondering how you managed to tap right into how I've been feeling the past few days. A roller coaster of adjustment and emotions. i just posted a piece from inside my journal called 'enters self-doubt'. we are on the same page, gurrrl. And, believe me, I know what it is to move and readjust and readjust some more. when i traveled cross country to move to Cali, i grieved for a few months off and on. Phew. Even though, this has ALWAYS felt like the right thing, the adjustment was challenging to say the least.

    and it is SO easy to think you are all alone in these moments.

    sooo appreciating your speaking up weekly newsletter, also! such good stuff, Ruth! the part where you share that you chose to lie down and allow yourself your feelings deeply touched my heart. <3

    wishing you all the best in your adjustment, Ruth. cheers to the adventure! cheers to celebrating our emotions and knowings when we can, too.

    ~m ox

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    1. Do you know how reassuring it is to hear you say that you grieved for months off and on? It really is a grieving. A welcomed grieving though, I think. Like you said, it feels like the right thing, it's just challenging.

      So glad you can relate xo

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