Tuesday, January 14, 2014

without shame, or judgment, or apology.







When I walk down the hall or the street or through the house,
the click of my heels –
the grown-up heels in the form of ankle boots from a dear friend
they click and clack and reverberate through the walls, the buildings, the ceilings.


I will not step lighter to hush their noises. 
I will not step faster to hurry their sounds.


I will step, and step, and step again, loudly and clearly and
without shame
or judgment
or apology.






When I write my words or post my pictures,
the sentiment that gets poured through --
be it in a smile or a non-smile or a foot or a cup or a tree --
it will be taken however it will be taken.


I will not post less to quiet myself.
I will not post differently to morph myself.


I will post, and post, and post again, loudly and clearly and
without shame
or judgment
or apology.






When I move through the world
in tears, or anger, or elation, or anxiety --
and oftentimes they all go hand-in-hand in the strangest paradox I've known --
I will love them and welcome them all the same.


I will not stifle anger for fear of stepping on toes.
I will not suppress tears for worry of looking weak.


I will feel, and feel, and feel again, loudly and clearly,
without shame
or judgment
or apology.









These are my newest 2014 vows and I love them. You? 

4 comments:

  1. Love Love Love this! Especially this "I will not suppress tears for worry of looking weak" YES. I have cried so many tears in the past few weeks and have apologized. But no more. As I read this I felt almost like I was finally getting "permission" to be heard, to cry, to speak out loud. Thank you so much :)

    These tears are helping me through a trying time. Actually keeping me afloat.

    I'm not apologizing anymore.

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    1. This is incredible, thank you for sharing. Isn't it such a relief when we can say that? So glad this helped you :)

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